Its that time of the year again carnival in Gozo, the place is packed with people and floats and parades are getting ready for this long weekend event. You really have to look twice when passing some of the guys dressed as women (I think the beards give them away). There’s going to be a lot of fun frivolity and no doubt a little s-x on the side. But what happens in Gozo during Carnival stays in Gozo. I’m not sure if its safe for me to venture out tonight, hmm we shall see.
I live opposite a monument that has fascinated me since I moved here, the dedication is in Maltese so its been kinda difficult to find out what or who the monument is for. The light shines bright throughout the night and I’m sure it can be seen from miles around. My investigation shed light on what to me was a mystery. Bryan Portelli someone here really loves and misses you.
The monument I have discovered was built with the support of his mother Rita Portelli (its amazing what you can find out on Facebook). I feel it best to leave any further commentary to those who know more about Bryan in the meantime these are just a few random photos I’ve taken of this magnificent view.
So there you have it, a sad story no doubt perhaps Bryan’s mother can explain?
Well what a couple of days. It all started on Thursday 4th May 2017. I decided to take Lidia’s advice (my Nemesis) and stay in Malta before getting my flight to the UK and get a taxi to the airport. Let’s face it I’m going to be away for around a month so to park in the airport would cost around €600. The last time I flew from Malta I was away 10 days and it cost more for the car park than the flight!!
So the journey started with me arranging for Maria to take care of Peace while I’m away. She was happy to agree and has already been well rewarded. I get to the ferry terminal and get a message from Charlotte my German friend “John when can you take the rest of the barbecue away?” I’d part dismantled the very big and heavy barbecue in her house and moved the lighter part to the roof garden that I’m making on the roof of my house. The base needs at least 2 men to move. Sorry Charlotte on my way to the UK. Her reply 😦 (Now I feel guilty). But I find the hotel very easily with my phone’s satellite navigation system. Checking in and parking my car outside was OK so I decide to go and have an early dinner a delicious pizza just 20-30 paces from the hotel. I go for a swim and then try to get some sleep. No chance! So perhaps I should do some work on the phone, I go downstairs to find an outlet as the charger won’t work in my room. Sitting outside the Chinese massage parlor in the hotel foyer I decide to have a 30 minute aromatherapy session. The Chinese lady says get ready and I’ll come back in. I hear her on the phone shouting at her husband about dinner haha. I joke about it when she comes in. I go back to my room I must get some sleep I nap but I wake around 1-30am and decide to go on my small balcony for a coffee, just as I step into the fresh air Prabhu sends a reply to my previous message, he will arrange for me to be picked up at the airport when I get to Bali. I close the door but it locks behind me. Oh holy crap… I’m stuck on the small balcony in my pyjamas (but I have my phone), I surf the net for the hotel number and call the reception. Help please I’ve locked myself on the balcony! HaHa the lady says I’ll come and let you in, she enters my room I can see her through the glass door and opens up. Thank you so much, are you the lady that made the reservation for me, we start talking, I explain I live in Gozo and am going via the UK to Bali to my Guru’s Ashram. Who’s your Guru, Prabhu DarmaYasa, Oh Lidia she say’s?? Do you know Lidia?, yes she says, I explain that Lidia used to be my partner (BUSINESS partner) that is. We talk for quite some time, I give her one of Prabhu’s books, clearly there was a divine guidance to do so.
I decide there’s no way I’m going to get any sleep so start looking at Facebook, I see a post from Velvet my granddaughter in-law in California, I comment she comments back for once (Velvet and I have slightly different political views to put it mildly), then another from Chuthima in Thailand, Velvet’s mother in law, (my daughter in law) this is getting quite complicated I’ll explain later ha ha. Messages then start coming in from all over the world. It’s amazing how ‘messenger’ helps you keep in touch. I’m writing this on the airplane time for a break the battery is almost drained.
Well it’s now the 10th May and I’m sat in Sarah (my daughter) house in Hull UK. I’m waiting to go to the bank to collect some currency for Bali. I leave tomorrow and will be in Bali about a day later. So I’m travelling from Hull to London Heathrow by train, then Heathrow to Densapar (Bali) via Singapore and then to the Ashram. Then I expect I will have very little time to go ‘online’ so I will quite probably be ‘absent’ for some time (yes I know Oh good you are saying). This part of my journey to become a Buddha is hopefully going to answer many of the questions I have and maybe heal my body and spirit, who knows I may even find the answer to Nirvana, who knows? Whatever happens I’m sure the story will continue to fascinate maybe not you but certainly me.
Bye for now Love and Peace.
Well I suppose this is the one common factor all my readers will experience, we all live and we all die but both experiences can be looked forward to with a new fresh look at our alternatives. So I guess the obvious starting point is:-
From the day we are born we experience all kinds of traumas, being born itself can be quite distressing leaving the safety of our mother’s womb to enter a world where we are no longer protected and nurtured, we are on our own and it’s up to each and every one of us to cope the best we can.
I will take my own life’s experience as an example.
I was born on 10th February 1951, I was born in my mother and fathers house shortly after the war and I was born with the umbilical cord wrapped around my neck. If it hadn’t been for the retired midwife up the top of our street I wouldn’t be here today she pulled me through.
Fast forward to 2016, I arrived at my new home in Gozo and immediately had problems with my legs. My legs felt like two balloons extremely painful and I could hardly walk. So here I was new to the island and hadn’t a clue what to do (I didn’t even have my residency at this stage). So I went to the local pharmacy Ta Pinu pharmacy and spoke to the lovely Marica (Married). She arranged for me to come back at 2pm later that day to see the lovely Dr Josette Rapa (Married). Now I have had treatment in different parts of the world predominantly the USA and UK and I’ve written about this before. The appointment I had with Dr. Rapa was without a doubt the best I’d ever had in my then 65 years. She arranged for me to go into hospital and I stayed for a few days and was treated very well there.
On leaving my doctor in the hospital (not Dr Rapa) prescribed me medication which I was asked to take over the next few months and was likely to resolve my problem. The service and attention I was given was second to none.
Now as it happens one of the first places I visited and joined was The Lotus Ta Qalb in Gharb, there I learned to meditate (amongst other things). One day during instruction with Lorraine Casey Orlandie I met a lady called Helena. Helena had written a book about the natural plants and remedies on the island and she agreed to treat me with amongst other things her tea made from local plants. WOW! Did that help it was supposed to clear the water from my body and worked so well I was reluctant to leave home. As it happens Helena was due to return to her home in Hungary and suggested (insisted) I visit a Doctor in Malta. Malta! I said why? I have a perfectly good doctor her on Gozo. Helena eventually flew home but later she sent me an email asking if I had seen her doctor yet? NO I said but she insisted that I went.
As it happens one particular day I was meeting a friend at Malta airport Lupie Lou so though OK I’ll call this doctor and see if she can see me. That was when the course of my LIFE changed.
I arrived at the YUE centre with plenty of time to spare, I was expecting a Russian shot putter to arrive and order me around but what I found was a revolutionary approach to my issues (let’s face it the Ruskie’s were the first to get a man into space). Dr Lidia Babenko was not a bulky Russian shot putter she actually reminded me of Meryl Streep. I had an awkward conversation with Lidia she being Russian and me a Brit, but we managed and I had what is called a Bio-Resonance test. It takes an hour and involved some fairly complicated equipment from Russia (from Russia with Love. Hey how could 007 pass this opportunity by). After what turned out to be a 2 hour consultation Dr Lidia sent me a 4 page report and accompanying diets and instructions of what I needed to do. Now then the story gets extremely complicated but I’ll keep to the point, I decided (wrongly as it happens) to take the easier route and go down the traditional route as prescribed by the hospital “just pop a few pills over the next few month a hey presto you’re done”.
But Dr Lidia had different ideas when she found out what I had decided she worked alongside my traditional medicine and within no time at all I was cured. This was amazing to me and since then I’ve introduced Lidia (not sure if she’s married or not hmm) to several other people including my friend Geraldine Ann Ford. Geraldine is regarded as one of the best mediums in Gozo and believe me she can certainly do her stuff. But Geraldine had a heart attack, her blood cholesterol level was over 8 points. I took her to tea one day and we met Lidia who in passing asked Gel how she was doing? Gel went on to explain about her cholesterol issue. “Oh maybe I can make a suggestion Geraldine” Lidia said, just do this and this and see how it goes. Such an off the top of the head suggestion with no ‘formal’ consultation may have saved Gel’s life (well certainly helped her cholesterol). Within weeks Geraldine’s blood cholesterol level fell from over 8 points to under 3. Her cardiologist was stunned he asked Gel what she’d been doing, when she told him he said he would get all of his patients to do that.
Naturally I became intrigued with this completely different way of living my life and over time Lidia introduced me to many new things such as Angka Meditation and eventually my brother, teacher & Guru Prabhu DarmaYasa.
At 65 years old this was a new beginning, I eventually met Prabhu here in Malta and spent many hours with him. He called me Mr John (I’m a bit older than him) but he is far wiser. So move on to 2017 and at 66 I visited his ashram the ParamDarma in Bali. Unfortunately while I was there for my 3 weeks Prabhu was here in Malta Spreading Spiritual Peals, so I didn’t get to see him in the ashram which was the reason I went. But wow how everyone there welcomed me. I stayed in my own bamboo hut, was given food every day and joined in many of the activities etc. Bali, the people at the ashram, Lidia and Prabhu have changed my life. I see new hope, new beginning’s and something to live for after my meltdown in the USA.
I will return to the ashram maybe next February 2018 (but this time will make sure my brother, teacher and Guru is there so I can ‘pick his brains). Inevitably like us all I will face death, but I do so now with a new resolve, in peace and with a smile on my face. I’m not ready to go just yet so I follow Lidia’s rather strict but healthy guidelines but when the inevitable does happen I’ve now planned for that..
WHAT IS CAPSULA MUNDI?
Capsula Mundi is a cultural and broad-based project, which envisions a different approach to the way we think about death. It’s an egg-shaped pod, an ancient and perfect form, made of biodegradable material, where our departed loved ones ashes are placed for burial. The ashes will be held in small egg-shaped urn the Capsula will then be buried as a seed in the earth. A tree, chosen in life by the deceased, will be planted on top of it and serve as a memorial for the departed and as a legacy for posterity and the future of our planet. Family and friends will continue to care for the tree as it grows. Cemeteries will acquire a new look and, instead of the cold grey landscape we see today, they will grow into vibrant woodlands, sacred forests.
HOW CAPSULA MUNDI CAME ABOUT
The Capsula Mundi project roses from a deep examination of the role of designers in our society.
In a culture far removed from nature, overloaded with objects for the needs of daily life and focused on youth, death is often dealt with as a taboo.
They believe that this unavoidable passage, so meaningful, is not the end, but the beginning of a way back to nature.
Inspired by these reflections, they decided to redesign the coffin – an object entirely left out of the design world – using ecological materials, and universal life symbols, such as the egg and the tree.
A UNIVERSAL MESSAGE
The biological cycle of transformation is the same for all living beings. It is time for humans to realize our integrated part in nature. Capsula Mundi wants to emphasize that we are a part of Nature’s cycle of transformation. This universal concept goes beyond cultural and religious traditions. Only a tree, a symbol of the connection between the sky and the earth, will mark the resting place of the deceased. As tree after tree is planted, the cemetery will become a forest, free of the architectural motifs that mark today’s memorial grounds. The cemetery will be transformed into a place of nature, one where families can stroll and learn about the natural world, where communities will come together to tend and care for trees. In short, it will become a sacred forest.
LIMITING ENVIRONMENTAL IMPACT
Presently, to make a coffin, a tree must be cut down. The coffin has a short life cycle and strong environmental impact. A tree takes between 10 and 40 years to reach maturity and the coffin is of use for just three days! We want to plant trees instead of cutting them down! Furthermore, Capsula Mundi urns are made from 100% biodegradable material and come from seasonal plants.
Finally the difficult bit, I live in Gozo (Malta) and here despite the need for more space and more trees cremations are not allowed so I’ve taken up the challenge and am looking for a funeral home who can arrange transport to Italy for cremation and the pop me into an egg. So now all this stuff is done and dusted I can continue to live for the day rather than thinking what’s going to happen in the future.
Peace & Love
So the journey continues and whilst I continue to learn ‘mostly’ alone I can refer to many online resources such as Essence of Buddhism which has just won an award for its contribution to understanding Buddhism. I’ve found I can ‘fast track’ my learning online and at my age I need to fast track. But nothing compares to the personal teachings of a wise teacher a ‘Guru’. My own teacher is Prabhu DarmaYasa. He continues to surprise and sometimes I think he ‘tests me’. However, it’s all done in a friendly, humorous way, and I can smile when I feel it’s happening.
Just recently Prabhu (DarmaYasa) has taken to posting his teachings on Facebook, in the early hours of the morning. The language is Indonesian and I feel obliged to translate into English, so that English speakers who don’t have time to kill can understand the importance of these messages. The added bonus however is that I get to read these ‘Spiritual Pearls’ before most people here have even woken up. The downside of course is that I don’t get much sleep, something that my old doctor (Dr. L) my Nemesis ha ha.. say’s I need. The thing is this awareness seems to have lifted not only my spirit but my energy. So it’s a win-win which I used to teach my team was important in my previous Commercial life.
I’m also fortunate in being a volunteer at the Lotus-Tal-Qalb where there are similar people to me, mostly Brits, (but not quite as crazy), we discus some of the questions and issues we have with each other in our regular Monday talks. Talking helps. If we talked more there would be less trouble in our world.
If you were to ask The Buddha if this style of ‘fast tracking’ was OK I think he’d say “sure that’s what all my teachings are about”. So I continue on happy and blissfully unaware if I’m offending anyone along the way. I hope not…
I’ll take my own journey in my own way, each of us should decide the best way for ourselves. We’re all faced with different responsibilities, whether it’s looking after our family or a commitment to a cause. Fortunately I have the luxury of knowing (as best I can) that my family are fine and I can look after my commitments to any good causes that I’m attached to. So I can focus on ME and finding that Nirvana (that I know is there).
I think that’s enough for today, the cock is crowing in the background, his job is supposed to be about waking people up. I hope his helps bring a wake-up call to everyone who reads my blog.
Peace and Love and all the best as Prabhu would say.
I started to write this while my Facebook was charging up and then this appeared from my spiritual teacher (my Guru) DarmaYasa.
Life should be about play and laughter when we’re younger. I have many kids, when I’m asked “How many children do you have?” I think “Oh no here we go again”. Because I’ve been blessed with many, at my last count 11 (that I know of). Wow people say eleven, then I have to explain (which in my case could take a lifetime), and at 66 I don’t have all day ha-ha. So before I go any further I will explain.
In my first ‘true marriage’ I first ‘inherited’ 6 children, sure I wasn’t the sperm donor, but I happily ‘took on’ at 23 Oh My God, the Joy these kids brought me. I then had my ‘own’ daughter Sarah (who’s the light of my life). It gets even more complicated ‘cos before Bobbin (my daughter’s nickname) came along I had a relationship with someone else and she gave me another daughter Elizabeth, so Elizabeth is the eldest of my ‘personal children‘. Later my wife and I divorced (long story too long for this post) and I remarried someone with 3 kids, so 6+3+2 = 11 numbers are important…. see Angka meditation for more info.
I’ve learnt a lot as I’ve enjoyed teaching and being taught by my kids through the years, such as ‘I too can become a Buddha‘ and kids know when there’s a swimming pool around especially when they want to go swimming, (I’d be driving along the road and Bobbin would say “wimming pool” she couldn’t pronounce the Ss but she could smell the chlorine in the air, and wanted to go for a swim with her big ‘smiley face’). Even now after some 35 years makes me smile just thinking about it.
So yes I have lots of kids, I don’t like calling them my ‘step children’ ‘cos I knew what I was doing when I married their mothers I ‘adopted’ them, and it’s been a Joy watching them all grow up have their own children, some of whom went on to have even more children. There are now more children bearing my name in the world than ever before (my dad would be proud of his son getting our family name re-established tehe). Sure they don’t have my genes but I hope in some small way I can contribute to showing them the true path, the middle path no extremes are necessary to attain happiness (Buddhahood).
So I call myself a Christian Buddhist, I was born a Christian but later became attached to Buddhism (which to me isn’t a religion but a way of life). It was Bobbin that was instrumental in in bringing me that realization and Leigh her brother that developed it, (long story). But because of all of my ‘earthly’ responsibilities I put this ‘self-realization’ on the back-burner (I had all these kid’s to provide for and what a journey it’s been).
So to the original point I was going to make “You too Anya can be a Buddha” that’s what Chuthima (Anya’s mother) said to Anya when he started moving off that ‘middle path‘ (Anya is my Grandson). It was said on Facebook so everyone saw Chuthima teaching her son a lesson. It amused me at the time but also gave me one of those Aha moments (and there have been many since). Could I become a Buddha? Surely that’s a bit like saying I’m Jesus, and that in Christianity would be a heresy, you’d be burnt at the stake for saying that not so long ago. But Buddhism is much different, The Buddha wanted to teach everyone that no need to go through all these trials and tribulations to reach your Nirvana . I’ll cut through the crap, he would have said in today’s modern lingo and then you can experience true bliss much earlier in this thing we call life (which is just the blink of an eye). So for now its goodbye from me and goodbye from him “all the best”
Dark Side over Gozo/Dark side of the Moon?
So a big concert is planned this month called ‘Dark side over Gozo’ I wonder if anyone has listened to the full album right at the end when it say’s “There is no dark side of the moon, as a matter of fact it’s all dark”. Hmm could this be the case for Gozo?
I think most people who visit Gozo will recognise there’s an energy here, the island attract thousands each year many come to experience the energies of the place and energy is certainly here you feel it as soon as you step off the ferry. But whilst these energies are a source for those who are looking towards goodness, peace, love and harmony, inevitably that same energy will attract those looking more towards the dark side. Gozo is steeped in history, some believe the island is the site of Atlantis, hundreds of years ago almost the entire population was captured from the Citadella were they gathered together to defend themselves but lost and sent into slavery by the Moors, the handful left on the island became very insular, who wouldn’t when most of the population had gone, it must have felt quite like those books written about the end of civilisation as we know it, the end of days. Talking of books many have been written about the history of the island and its big brother Malta, (Malta is considered the male whilst Gozo is the female).
Conspiracy theorists talk about ‘The New World Order’ again many books and evidence are available for anyone interested in checking this subject out and I’d like to examine some of this evidence later, but back to Gozo.
Having lived here (Gozo) for a year now and having spent 10 years in the USA the comparisons are quite eye opening. How different these two countries are in so many ways. Of course the US was involved in slavery, but they used the slaves rather than become one. We Europeans invaded and conquered America taking the land from the indigenous population, America is a melting pot of races, colour and religion. Gozo is predominantly white and Catholic.
Gozitan’s are very secretive about their wealth yet there are said to be more billionaires here on this tiny island than that in The Swiss centre of banking, there’s no outward expression of wealth here (you’d think the average guy was ‘dirt poor’). But go into their houses and their wealth is many times quite evident. Houses that from the outside look more like a rundown garage are like palaces inside. Yet they drive around in beat up old cars (some have custom jobs in the garage though). Everything is cash, banks are avoided and tax avoidance is clearly rife. Wherever you go many places have a notice saying ‘cash only’. Compare this to the US.
In the US paying with cash is almost unheard of, the card is king. People give an outward appearance of wealth whether it’s the house they live in, the car they drive or the clothes they wear, yet many are up to their eyes in debt. Debt is what keeps the population in its place, wage slaves! Yet America so deeply in debt as a population and a country is considered the most powerful country in the world. In my travels no two places can be considered so different. You have to ask yourself does this make sense.
Well that’s where the New World Order conspiracy theories come into play.
World leaders have many times quoted the New World Order. From Churchill Nixon Bush and many more. The evidence is impelling and covers so many areas.
We are controlled by many institutions, the banks, drug companies, big Agriculture companies and even our religions. The people behind it are said to be the Rockefeller’s, the Rothschild’s and others. But how and why?
Whoever coined the phrase ‘united we stand, divided we fall’ (also the motto for Kentucky USA) was probably thinking far differently at the time and likely hadn’t considered how vulnerable the mass population would become if they all joined together under one message (one enemy is easier to tackle than many).
The United Nations was established under the premise of avoiding conflict and making the world a better place, but has it. Agenda 21 of the UN is supposed to set out the course, unfortunately these type of messages aren’t always what they seem and only individual research can open your eyes to that.
A small example of false messages is George Bush’s “No child left behind act”. What a great idea, create a framework where all children had equal opportunity, but it was a wolf in sheep’s clothing. It served to indoctrinate children, tried to fit round pegs in square holes, it failed, and now more kids decide to drop out than stay in. When people have fought against this ‘one size fits all’ attitude the government (under the control of the New World Order) stepped in to quash their efforts, and it continues to be the case today. Kids in the US are more and more ‘taught to test’ they’re forced to learn what the government wants them to learn and if history doesn’t say what it wants, no problem just change the history books. You don’t pass the test, you don’t graduate, you don’t graduate, try getting a decent job! So it starts with education and making sure that our children are conditioned to believe what they want them to believe. Obey the rules or else.
“Sometimes people don’t want to hear the truth because they don’t want their illusions destroyed.” ― Friedrich Nietzsche
Choice is becoming limited in the US there are just two main political parties diversity is lost and despite the heated exchanges that take place it’s still difficult to recognise the differences (real differences) between the two.
“The smart way to keep people passive and obedient is to strictly limit the spectrum of acceptable opinion, but allow very lively debate within that spectrum….” – Noam Chomsky
So to religion, a very dangerous area to open up, wars are fought in the name of religion, people feel very deeply about their religion whether it’s Christianity, Islam, Judaism etc. Religion itself has in my opinion always been used to instil order, sometimes for the good but also for the bad. But even here what appears to be a good well-meant idea is in danger of being used for the benefit of a few. Take “Bahá’í which believes in the unity of all religions. They have incorporated Jesus, Moses, Muhammad, and Buddha, among others, into their teachings and practices. Bahá’í is essentially the de-facto religion of the United Nations”. On the face of it a good idea but knowing how the cartel works would it just play into their hands?
Most people are aware of the way the banks, drug companies and big Agri chemical companies control us and there’s a wealth of information out there if you just look. So you say to yourself if this New World Order are so clever why don’t they simply get rid of the evidence. They don’t care that we know what’s happening take a quote.. “For more than a century ideological extremists at either end of the political spectrum have seized upon well-publicised incidents such as my encounter with Castro to attack the Rockefeller family for the inordinate influence they claim we wield over American political and economic institutions. Some even believe we are part of a secret cabal working against the best interests of the United States, characterising my family and me as ‘internationalists’ and of conspiring with others around the world to build a more integrated global political and economic structure–one world, if you will. If that’s the charge, I stand guilty, and I am proud of it.“—David Rockefeller. So is a well organised New World Order a good thing? Would it make our world a better place? WHY?
Only those few can answer that question in entirety but maybe its as simple as this. Perhaps they recognise that our earth can only support a finite population for the world to continue they need to remove what they see as the parasites that’s you and me and the billions of others that are considered unnecessary for their vision of a world that is sustainable, perhaps they are right! World population has without a doubt grown to what is becoming unsustainable, wars and pandemics help cull the herd and to some extent they have proved effective in the past but isn’t that a little like taking a sledge hammer to crack a nut? Maybe there is another way, birth control? Wow think of the current battles of the proponents and opponents to such an idea. Or maybe we have other options and those options haven’t yet arrived. Who knows we the human race may be the product of another race of aliens who felt the solution was colonising other planets. Far-fetched? Not so long ago evidence was found in Malta and other parts of the world of aliens having been here (see elongated skulls found in Malta). Maybe it can be a combination of many things to ensure the continuation of ‘civilisation’ as we know it.http://www.theearthchild.co.za/david-attenborough-says-humans-plague-earth/
I’m getting on a bit now (as the skull shows) in the autumn of my years, maybe, but I have children, and children are our future, perhaps we should set aside our differences and yes pull together to make it a better place, safer place for our children and those yet to come.
Dark side over Gozo. Not everything is black and white, not everything lasts forever, there are problems to be solved and rather than one small elite thinking they have the answer ‘The Secret’ perhaps we should use our resources and knowledge share and work towards not a New World Order but a world of LOVE. It sounds a better option to the alternative. Continue reading “The Dark Side”